Monday, 6 August 2012

Me on friday night. An interview.... link to my first book, HOOKED:

Friday, 4 May 2012

look at this!


My latest book...

Thursday, 22 March 2012

a new blog address

I am leaving this blog and moving to

book launch photo

at the book launch for my new book, UNHOOKED

Tuesday, 6 March 2012

radio, radio gaga

Tmrw morning I'm on BBC Radio Manchester from 10am, then doing BBC Radio Northern Ireland from 10.30am THEN (drum roll...) It's my fukin BOOK LAUNCH tmrw evening. Hollllaaaa!!

Monday, 5 March 2012

Live radio this evening

I'm live on BBC London radio from 11pm this evening. On the Jo Good show. 94.9FM

An email exchange

I had an email conversation with a young woman today, who asked me how i managed to change from living a life of utter chaos, to how things are today. My reply is pasted below... You see i don't always say ' read my book it's all in there...' (only sometimes i say that! :O)

HER: 'But how did you manage to change? did you have someone helping you? from where did you get your inspiration for your life now?'

ME: How did i manage it? With a huge amount if difficulty. Sometimes im not even sure myself how i have managed to remain alive. i would not wish what i went through in the early stages of recovery on someone i don't like. It was the hardest time of my entire life. it's as tho i'd been existing for years with wool stuffed into my ears, dark goggles on my eyes and wearing a wet suit. Suddenly these were taken off and i fuckin freaked out. badly. i freaked out and wondered when the welcome to reality would ever stop. i wondered how i could live in the 'real' world.
People from NA meetings and rehab kept promising me that things would change. i had to continue. My only other option was death. I was already emotionally dead. i had to fight on and fight and fight. Every day was a struggle. i didn't know how to fight with no energy. But anger at my situation must have kept me fuelled and i fought with everything i was.

I wanted more than anything for my mind to stabilise. The practical side of living was secondary. Something in me believed that at some point things HAD to change and become easier ..... Then over time, i started noticing that my thoughts were becoming clearer and i wasn't anxious every moment i was awake. I wasn't scared at nothing all the time. After 3 months in rehab, i didn't get a legitimate job for nearly 2 years. i daren't. id never done anything else other than source money for drugs. i had no qualifications and my self esteem was in the gutter.
What it takes to change it utter, utter determination. But the foundation of the change process was absolute honesty. Honetsy with myself and with other people. A level of honesty that I had to be trained to do. Many people don't make it. Many people i knew are now on the streets, or dead. That incudes people i was in rehab with.
I don't know how i made. I just don't know........... Everything now often feels like a dream that happened to someone else. Its very strange thinking back. Some times it feel like it happened a lifetime ago - other times, its like it was yesterday. The reason for this? the issues that caused me to get involved in my past crap, in the first place - are within me. Its those issues that i always need to be aware of and have learned to manage better. The inspiration to do this comes only from me.


LOVE the styling and everything else about this!

My babies

My new book:

My first book:

BOTH available for download. You can even get it on your phone, wherever you are on the planet.

Thursday, 1 March 2012


My new book - out today - take a look!

It's based on my experience of 3 months in a residential drug rehabilitation centre. It's about recovering from addiction and how one person did that.

click on the link:

My book, UNHOOKED is released today!

A review for my new book, UNHOOKED, in Look! magazine!

The book i released today!

Monday, 6 February 2012

Book Launch

My next book is released on March 1st - book launch is March 7th.

Can't wait!
Beside that, I've been told that UNHOOKED will be available on Kindle and for download from the same date: March 1st.

Monday, 30 January 2012

A review of UNHOOKED

A review of UNHOOKED.

"CG, I found it a compelling read. And I say that not to blow smoke up your arse, but because its true. I like your style, I find it earthy, articulate, intelligent and with a consistent theme of "feet on the ground", you manage to keep keep it gripping, shocking even, without saying things just for effect.

You also add some dimensions I didn't expect, let me explain.

Nearly every reader will know this is a story of a reformed drug addict, alcoholic, prostitute... etc. Bet when you explained in your early days of rehab your other addiction (traits) for sexual attention to feel loved, valued etc. Well that surprised me, I felt I was getting a genuine, full blown insight into the workings of a mind of someone trying to come to terms with all the horrors of where her mind had become.

Another thing I found very stylish and another reason why I love your style is you get the balance just right in your use of language. The majority is you speaking as an articulate author, but you throw in just enough slang to keep it real but not too much to put the reader off and therefore don't lose the intelligent theme. I mean this is a worthy, clever thesis on the mind, the psychology of an addicts mind, and the goblins therein.

Another and very clever area this stylish theme comes across is how you deal with the sexual themes as they emerge. I imagine it would be very easy, forgive me for saying, because of your background, to fall into "titillation" which you avoid very skillfully..! You address the sexual energy but don't ever indulge it in... very smart. In fact the only time there is any explicit sex is very brief after you have left the centre and reunite with Leon. What I am trying to say is that you keep the readers respect the whole way through, its a very fine balance which, in my view you hit just perfectly. As I said. honesty but not indulgence.

I suppose the only ... and its not negative.. its just how it made me feel.. wobbly bit is that at times I found it so brutally honest and insightful there were moments when I found it quite harrowing.

This may be complicated to explain but the unintended consequence (of good intent) is there are some who may be put off by the horror of rehab and therefore not dare face it ... if they have read this book. BUT my bet is that there will be far more (me included) who will read this and pull there shit together so as to never have to fall as low as you went and go through what you have been through. Does that make sense? It is meant as a positive. I have addictive traits, which I can bore you with another time, maybe that's why I found some bits so harrowing and powerful. "


, is currently available in WHSmith's in UK airports ONLY (promotional/publishing-business purposes. don't ask) It is officially released on March 1st onto the high street and will then be available through Amazon.

Tuesday, 24 January 2012

Being British

Being British is about driving a German car to an Irish pub for a Belgian beer,then on the way home grabbing an Indian curry or a Turkish kebab,to sit on a Swedish sofa and watch USA shows on a Japanese TV. Most of all its about being suspicious of anything Foreign. Oh, and only in Britain can you get a pizza to your home faster than a ambulance. Only in Britain do banks leave both doors open and chain the pens to the counter. Supermarkets make sick people walk to the back of the shop for prescriptions while healthy people get their cigarettes at the front.
We might be British but fuck, we're funny !

Monday, 16 January 2012

UNHOOKED - a book on rehab and change.

X-rated. (not) sorry.

check this out....

it's not gonna make your computer combust and it's not x-rated (sorry)

Wednesday, 11 January 2012

Got sent a copy of my new book !

I've received the first copy of my new book, UNHOOKED!!!
I'm totally thrilled and overwhelmed! It's real. Its here!

It's currently on sale for pre-publication orders on Amazon for a hugely reduced price.

Take a look or not. As you wish!